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the memory is still vivid, remembering that i was filling up applications form for the different universities and photocopying all the relevant documents and now, im in my last semester of uni life already.
"Whatever that looks pretty on the outside, comes from sheer hardwork, determination, goals, dreams, knowledge and most importantly, action on the inside. you can either sit and look in envy, with regrets, or push yourself to strive for greater things and look forward with positivity."
As i was reading this from pamela's blog, i somehow can relate and also having mixed feelings and much confusion within me. it bothers me when people asked me what i am going to do after i graduate and perhaps i did lose my vision every now and then during the journey.
I am aware that doing marketing will not allow me to earn as much as others who are striving to be a lawyer, doctor, banker, accountant. but i want to be happy with my job. my plans for now is to get a job after graduation (hopefully branding related or magazine) and save up money to start up a business. will never forget how i tell the people close to me how much i want to open up a cafe.
I guess i really need to have my visions ironed out and hopefully i can be happy with what i will be doing. This is probably one of the biggest roadblock I have had to face and it is my battle to fight, my decision to make.
All these feelings have been bottling inside me for quite awhile, i can only hope that this moody spell will lift soon. kind of hate living life with these feelings. it gets in the way of everything.
