oh what joy: October 2009

Sometimes I cant help

but to be really thankful of having you two by my side (:

something is bothering me now, WHY DOES WEEKENDS PASSS SO FAST.

suddenly it feels like 24 hours isnt enough and wished for more. oh wells. time seems to fly. we are left with one more week of attachment and everyone is hanging on, five more days!!

i heard from H and S about how they are going to miss their attachment place. thinking back, i think i might to. like the colleagues there, the-ever-rushing work, other schools interns, yong tau foo lunch break. one thing im thankful of, is the good supervisor that i have (: each time i got difficulty or anything, she never scolds but teach us the proper way and will say that she hopes we will learn something from this whole attachment. when i heard that, totally blown away. its like quite true, what is attachment without any learning or experience. internship also makes me think, when am I going to be able to grow up and FOCUS and commit myself to one thing.

one happy thing, spending time at punggol end ^^ i was feeling glad that i arent that lazy to get out from home. haha. i like how the sun fall through to the sand and water. AMAZING.

Not paying attention

after seeing cass drive, I was very excited and motivated to get my PDL asap. i woke up really early so as to avoid the crowd and everything, like some typical singaporeans. took the fastest route to reach there. and it was only when i felt frustrated why the bus was taking so long, then did i realise it was a PUBLIC HOLIDAY. JOKE OF THE DAY. HAHA.

my dad say im very ignorant to things around me. today i cant help but to agree to it to a large extent.

all natural

With rooms like this, i can stay there not going out. haha. i wanna have soft-painted strips on my wall, beds with loads of cushion and comforter, cute-printed curtains, photos that bring back wonderful memories hanging on the wall, view with the open forest / sea etc etc etc. the list will never end.

awwwwww. oh what joy!

love photobooth!

kind of amusing. next time need not spend $6 on the photobooths in MRT. this one if dont like can retake again (: haha.

try it people! credits to : x

Blue morning

stayover at cousin house was tiring.

Renewing of mind

I've also been in a major slump lately. As in a slump on the couch and feel sorry for myself everyday those kind. I feel lost, not sure which direction I should be headed in.

always trying to make excuses for all the things I didn't accomplish this month. I realize I'm someone who has dropped many lately and hasn't even had the energy to pick up a dozen others. I also beat myself down emotionally all the time for that. And the more I spin myself around in the "I'm not good enough" ringer, the more I start to believe it, and the slumping ensues.

I know I'll get over this- slumps have come and gone before. although in the other post i mention that i just want to be happy, it just struck me in today's sermon that it is not just about me. but its about how God is shaping my character in life as i go through all the trails. tears starts to formed when i see how people find peace in their heart each time they turn to God. its just so amazing to know how BIG our God is, who is in control of everything, a tower of refuge and strength. i found security and faith once again in God, and i like how pastor say "do not be conformed by the world, but be transformed by the renewing of mind."

God, i love you.

i want i want

i want to play.
i want to have fun.
i want to sing.
i want to do my thing.
i want to make friends.

i want to not be a loser.
i want to laugh till i tear.
i want to goof around.
i want to go to school.
i want to make money.

i want to fly a kite.
i want to travel the world.
i want to learn to play the drum.
i want to read a book.
i want to learn a sport.

i want to be healthy.
i want to be loved.
i want to be understood.
i want a listening ear.

i want happy friends.
i want no war.
i want no terrorist.
i want no pain.
i want no poverty.
i want no premature deaths.
i want something good to happen.

i want God to do a miracle so big i know He's still there, somewhere.

i want i want

Actually,i just want to be happy. can?

Because i dont like.

dont like it when i dont actually get anything done in the night.
dont like it when i have to work from 830am to 6pm
dont like it when im falling sick
dont like it when it seems like time is running out.

Kite-flying

sunday was kite-flying day. we brought mats, cupcakes, milo, kites, camera and all set to fly. tried many attempts to get the pirate kite flying. when the wind came, we were so excitied to make the kite fly. met a really nice couple to taught us a little how to get the kite going.

little kids around there are lovely too! oh what joy!