You never let go

In today's prayer meeting, i heard a new worship song and love how the lyrics is speaking to me.



You never let go, through the calm and the storm
You never let go, in every high and every low
You never let go Lord, you never let go of me

I can see the light that is coming, for the hearts that goes on
Until that day comes, still I will praise you

Your perfect love is casting out fear
Even when I am caught in the middle of storms in this life, I will never look back.

To have heart

June & July have been challenging and eye-opening months. In the end, all i want is to take the best out of it so that I can be better as i'm moving forward with life. This August, please be good to me. 

So... I will be starting unto my new job on Monday. It is a different industry, not sure if im going to regret it anot, but really hanging on to God to trust and putting everything into His hands. I love advertising, it is really rewarding when you see the print ads and brochures being viewed by the audience, love looking at the art direction of the ad itself. But somehow, to reflect back what really goes behind the scenes of what people think is 'interesting' isnt that enjoyable. 

There will be changes in the job scopes and roles in the new workplace. Not sure what to expect but i hope im able to learn and perhaps a better work-life balance where i can take off days and chill without feeling pressured by what i face when i return. A life where i am able to attend cell groups, to be able to catchup with friends to find out what happened during that week etc.

Anyway sidetrack a little, each time i talked to @thepoppycandy and @pickaline, it is hard to believe that we have been friends for more than 8 years. we shared secrets and giggles as school girls, and fretting over each homework that we cant finish. time really flies and wonder how we have evolved, however i believe we are still the same us and we will standy by one another and have much fun together as long as it takes :)

Call me NOWWWW

KEEP CALM AND CALL ME MAYBE.

Omgosh! I was wandering why people were raving about the abercrombie & fitch guys in the music video. but now that i seen it, i think i know why. hehehe

LIfe through instagram

Instagram has been addictive as it makes pictures really pretty with their filters and fading effect. Here is a sum up of what's happening. Tried to make the images bigger but it cant fit two image in a row, so oh wells. anyways, it has been two and a half weeks (?) since i quit my job. a lot of time has been spend on myself. I kind of enjoy it, but sometimes it gets really empty which makes me kind of sensitive as to what im doing with my life. but think i should continue enjoying hahaha.

MOVING FORWARD

So.... for the past few weeks were like intense workload upon me. kind of scary how i OT everyday and hit the sack once i reach home. It keeps and perks me up but sometimes i will be like whutttttt. the stress and the late nights at work have been taking a toll i suppose.

after much consideration, i decided to resign. The company provided me platforms to learn and understand more about the advertising industry. my colleagues and bosses are really nice, being patient with me (even when i am that slow) and teaches me when i dont know how to handle. however if the management isnt there then i dont think there is a reason for me to stay. but am glad and thank god for the opportunities that was given and it made me grow to learn to be more daring and direct. maybe i should really pen down what i have learnt and how i should improve myself.

ohwells, im kind of looking forward to my last day where i can really take a break from the fast-paced environment. hope to go for trips and chill by the beach or something. really need this badly, i guess everyone knows that haha.

lets all see how these goes. the next chapter, lets hope that it will get even better! :)

God, teach me what to do next.

It has been quite awhile since i last blogged.

Time really flies, its MAY already which means to say i have been into the workforce for close to 5 months already. Work has been a toil to me recently, because of the company's uncertainties and partly because of the workload which im facing. Initially i really enjoyed advertising, helping to build brands and all, figuring out the various industries. but now that im given one huge ass project, i feel constraint and tied down, not being able to explore others. have been working till 11plus everyday, which makes me wonder if all these are worth the efforts of staying up late just to complete them.

My parents have been saying why not just find a simple 9am to 6pm job and paying me the same amount. but sometimes i am afraid to just quit and regret. and yet should i stay on and trust the company?

I really dont know but to put everything into the potter's hands and hanging onto Jeremiah 29:11.

What is advertising

In marketing and advertising, real power comes from the ability to create or “invent” a perceived value for the service, product or message. To do so successfully you need to develop empathy, and apply it over the wants of the audience. Value drives everything.

Gong Hei Fatt Choy

It is the second day of chinese new year and im already sick of eating, its really mindless festive eating which makes you eat regardless of you feeling hungry or not. There are honey crackers, bakkwa, pineapple tarts in every household.

anyways, this year's new year is a nice time to catch up with relatives whom we haven met for awhile and i have enjoyed myself during the 4 days break. just sad that good things come to an end as i have to be back at work tml despite the office being closed. but ohwells i just have to do it.

Happy Chinese New Year everyone! 恭喜发财, 事事順利!

I'll build you a fire

Life have been passing really fast lately. January seems to be coming to an end really soon. Have been in my job for 3 weeks. Starting to look at advertising in a new perspective and it is a really fast-moving and dynamic environment. and that is where i start to think if working in an advertising industry would be suitable for me. been thinking alot lately, but unable to come into a conclusion.

sometimes i feel happy, sometimes i feel motivated, sometimes i feel sad, sometimes i feel angry, sometimes i feel excitied, sometimes i feel discouraged, sometimes i feel... however all these show in my face. emotions, tame down.

2012 - New Start

This year I have,

- turned 21

- graduated

- travelled to Genting, BKK, China, Batam

- run OHDEEDUP for a year

- lead Gkids for a year too

- baked and cooked

- made some new friends

- handled my finances v poorly

- made some mistakes and screwed things up

- started to find a full-time jobs

I felt like 2011 has been challenging for me, many times it felt like i am moving forward 3 steps and falling 2 steps back down. However there were happy times, being closer with friends and family and I am glad to have them by my side. There might be times where I grumble and whine alot, tears and frustrations, but I want to thank God for sustaining me through and making me stronger.

As 2012 approaches, let a stronger and calmer me take it on. It is a year of transition into working life, Jesus, take the wheel.

Christmas came home to us

This year christmas was slightly different from the past few years. I dont really know why, but maybe cause dad bought the christmas tree and added to the 'christmasy feel' Presents wrapped, placed under the christmas tree, festive goodies, good food, playing Michael Buble's Christmas Album, blissful :) it was a great time spending with family and friends ♥♥♥♥

• Candylicious Christmas Party with Cellgroup
• Studio M Hotel Stay with my fav. girls
• Brunch @ Kith Cafe
• Christmas service with Shirley
• Christmas caroling with Gkids

Besides all of these, We are the reason for this Christmas.

As little children we'd dream of Christmas morn
And all the gifts and toys we knew we’d find
But we never realized a baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

We are the reason that He gave His life
We were the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by we learned more of our gifts
The giving of ourselves and what that means
On a dark and cloudy day a man hung crying in the rain
Because of love
Because of love

Have a merry little Christmas everyone!

Lovin' Instagram

the very happenings and the not-so-happening events.

Far far away

I feel really stifled at the moment. Going through the interviews make me wonder if I am really passionate with what I am going to do, if it will be enough, and if I can really make a difference and do something of worth. The uncertainty and the feeling that "I am not good enough for this" just gripped me each time i think back. It is so hard to be young and try to find your place in the world. It feels like early 20s is such an important time in our life; figuring out who I am going to be while also trying to hold on to our youth.

Or maybe i need more patience to go figure out all these little things.

God, are you somewhere near me?

Last Youthwings Meeting

The church had some changes internally and my cell is being moved to a new tribe. i guess when i first received the news, i was shocked and didnt want to think about it (which i always do). because being with pastor sooksan and the rest, we are familiar with one another and that makes me even not wanting to let go. I struggled through and really didnt want to give up the tribe which im close with and the people whom i made during the past years.

but yet God reminded me of being submissive and giving support to my leader, and partly i didnt want to give up on my gkids also. yesterday we had youthwings meeting - which is my last one, it just hit me that im no longer with the rest, not being involved in the christmas planning etc. to be truthful and honest, i felt sad because there is so much to learn and grow from there and the community where we started off. as much as being the emotional me, God just reassured me in my heart that He always has plans to prosper and not to harm. and for that, im trusting God in the next phase.

and like what valerie shared that pastor started off youthwings quite timely and i must admit that despite me feeling the dread to go each time, i ended up feeling blessed just being there. God has never short-change me and it has always been God who is hanging on to us. im thankful for Pastor, the rest of the sisters and of course God who never fails.

11.14

It is mid-November already. i wander where all the time goes to. hmmmm. kind of looking forward for Christmas, still trying to persuade my dad to get a Christmas tree this year and decorate it with bright lightnings and ornaments.

Ever since school ended like last wed, i have been really free. Sometimes it makes me happy with nothing to do - guiltless hours spend snuggling in bed. being able to sit on the couch and read magazines. especially on rainy days, those can be the best days. however sometimes it gets really bored. i would walk around, looking at the sky, thinking of everything and nothing at the same time.

nevertheless, been trying to tidy up my resume and cover letter (sound v serious isnt it) when i think of my future, it seems like nothing, w/o any anticipation. always trying to avoid questions - so what are you going to do now. just because i dont want to think about it. I guess that is the problem, it all becomes tedious. maybe its time for some serious planning.

Dear God

Dear Mr. God,
I'm writin' You today
Because it seems like lately
I've forgotten how to pray
I know I don't need this pen
But everybody likes to get
A letter now and then
I'm sorry for not writin' more

Chorus:
'Cause I need you
But it's hard to see
Why anyone as big as You
Needs anything from me
I know You're there
So how ya been?
I'm alright but I can't lie,
Sometimes I feel like givin' in
You're all I've got
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsty.com/the-warren-brothers-dear-mr-god-lyrics.html ]
Dear Mr. God,
Sometimes I wish
You lived next door
So over coffee You could tell me
What You started all this for
I guess you saw
That sunrise yesterday
Thanks for the reminder
That You're never gone away
It gives me hope
Telling You what You already know

I need you
But it's hard to see
Why anyone as big as you
Needs anything from me
I know You're there
So how've You Been?
I'm all right but I can't lie
Sometimes I feel like givin' in

Dear Mr. God,
Tell me do You ever cry
When we forget to thank You
For the good things in our lives?
I know I can't always understand
Why You do the things You do
But I know in the end
I'll make it through
If I stand next to You
So here I am

Dear Mr. God,
I'm writin' you today
Because it seems like lately
I've forgotten how to pray

Antoinette

Went over to Antoinette with wunyen for tea :) a really comfy and cosy ambience together with very detailed furniture, making me feel like staying there the whole day! tea was good with very fragrant smell, had salted caramel toast also (vvvv awesome!)

Nothing on you baby

White spaces

I want to paint my whole room white, even my cupboards and tables. i really like white spaces, white walls. If i could have it my way, i will repaint my room white because i like how clean and classic white rooms tend to look. However, i reckon my parents would allow me to do that. my room always look cluttered, even after i packed and try to throw away the things i dont need or squeeze them into the cupboards. lets wait till exams are over.

I am doing this post because im sick and bored of studying already :( and no other korean dramas for me to watch.

final exams period

For all the days/weeks/months that i haven been updating... that is because im currently in the midst of my exams. yes, pretty much depressing and frustrating. needless to say, i am drained. 2 papers down and 2 more to go.

this semester is the slackest i can get. just received my results for my project groupwork, and i have a module that i just passed by one mark. YES ONE MARK. im feeling grumpy because of this, and its frustrating how grades can make my mood go down >:(

I've promised myself too many things, too many times. I often know in advance that I'll give up, procrastinate, and sometimes fail, but when I actually believe in my own determination, and then throw in the towel because times get tough, that's when I get devastated. It's a pattern of mine which spans over a decade and a half.