final exams period

For all the days/weeks/months that i haven been updating... that is because im currently in the midst of my exams. yes, pretty much depressing and frustrating. needless to say, i am drained. 2 papers down and 2 more to go.

this semester is the slackest i can get. just received my results for my project groupwork, and i have a module that i just passed by one mark. YES ONE MARK. im feeling grumpy because of this, and its frustrating how grades can make my mood go down >:(

I've promised myself too many things, too many times. I often know in advance that I'll give up, procrastinate, and sometimes fail, but when I actually believe in my own determination, and then throw in the towel because times get tough, that's when I get devastated. It's a pattern of mine which spans over a decade and a half.

I want to sing in the park under the trees

I have not been updating here much admittedly. been done with tests for this semester, and i must say that i totally procrastinate and dont give much seriousness in my studies. it hit me when i didnt score well and i was wandering what had happened to me.

I am actually quite stressed up currently, thinking of the projects are going to due and pressurizing myself what happens if i cant get distinctions this semester. frustrated because i dont know why im giving myself unnecessary stress. maybe because this is the last semester and i know how important it is to clear all my modules and graduate by the end of this year. ohwells, thinking so much doesnt really help. im leaving everything in God's hands!

To go where

I need directions. I need to know whether im making a right choice.

Having a blogshop is really not easy with many competitors out there, and people might think it is easy, but really it isnt. with photoshoots, replying to email, updating the blogs and fb etc etc. all these can take up most of my weekends and take up to 6 hours at least. sometimes i would think that the effort put in is not worth the returns. however, it kind of ache my heart if i would to give up now and looking at the previous efforts that i have put in gone to waste. what should i do now? should i perserve? all these concerns comes in when im afraid to take risks.

Jesus, take the wheel please.

Last Sem of School

Tomorrow marks the start of school after 3 months of holidays. omg yes, holidays pass real fast! before you knew it, it just ended like that, making me feel like i haven made full use of the holidays.

oh wells, its the last sem of school (hopefully, if i pass everything) and i will be in the working world in just half a year's time. IT IS THAT FAST.

lets pray and hope tomorrow will be a good start - cross fingers!

Planning Birthday

I love love love this birthday gathering! so close to nature and an intimate one together with family and friends! hoping to have something like that for my birthday, but then again, where to find such places :( parents and siblings have been asking about my 21st on how im celebrating and all. i then realized how troublesome it can be to hold a party.

how now brown cow.

#tomorrowdoesntmatter

I have officially ended my sem two exams (hopefully im able to clear all!) those studying days were the worst out of my entire school days. been just going to school and back home studying on the table together with notes and pens. it is like you wake up, washed up, start mugging, use computer for awhile, back to books and sleep. and the routine repeats again.

it was yesterday that i felt lost about what i should do now that exams are over. i even asked my sister the silliest question. "if i wanna go out, what should i bring out?"

that is the sign that i have been living under the rock for the past one and a half month. time to get my social life back.

matter of time

I have to admit that i've been in a pretty messed-up mood this week, maybe because of the gloomy weather we have had, or a few frustrations that caused me to to put Adele on constant repeat, or made me appreciative of those good-mood weeks. school has end for me, another semester over. i really cant believe how time flies just like that. and within 3 more weeks, exams are here. i gotta start studying and not procrastinate. but yet again, i have another assignment on hand which i have not touched and its due on friday. shucks.

so far from the break... been really busy and drained out. supper with usual, birthday party, teambuilding, church, gkids, tuition etc etc etc. though it has been busy, i kind of enjoy the rush of everything. it keeps me moving, thinking. hoping to do better, feel better.

*arms outstretched* need to sleep for now. and i need to shop badly.

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