as i reflect through 2009, everything seems different with changes in the tribe, cells and church. i personally couldnt adapt to the changes as i find it hard in adapting the new circumstances, something that im not familar with and fearful of. one part of me dread the changes.
over the course of this one year, I felt that my christian life has been spiritually stagnant, which is something that is not good. However, during the reflections, God has been showing me that changes are not excuses to not go to church or even to cell group meetings. my walk with God shouldnt be sarcrificed just because im fearful. one thing - i didnt dare to step out of my comfort zone.
very often i asked God and myself, why God allows us to go through certain changes or journeys in life. it is so tempting and easy to look at the negative side and keep asking WHY WHY WHY. and many times i dwell on the disappointment and hurts, thinking to ourselves that by somehow holding on to it, we are better able to make sense of what's happening.
however the holy spirit reminds me that in all things that are happening to us, God is the loving God who is always watching over us and directing our paths. everything that happen is there for a purpose and for a reason. "... for i know the plans i have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11 indeed God loves us and there is nothing we can do about it. sometimes i got so caught up by the businesss of life that i forgot the basic truths of the bible. And so i thank God that im still able to come home to a Father who loves me no matter how wrong i have done.
and i think i have spend 2009 worrying much about the future and trying to get over the feeling that there are more downs than ups in life. though i thought i didnt kind of like 2009, but it seemed positive overruled and it is all because of God's grace and love (:
i cant wait for a new year to start. cause there is so much to learn from God. i dont want to be spiritually stagnant anymore, i want to know who God really is in our lives and experience God. 2010 here i comeeeeee ^^
& i want to thank God for....
- God who never give up on me
- wy and cass for being there to encourage me, giving me advice, meeting me and have meals, made me a card etc etc. but most important to me is the quality time we spend together that matters the most (:
- polymates - serbian, yenfenn, pamela, yiting, huda, fangying, amanda - who are there to make school, reports and presentation more fun. haha.
- Shirley - being friends with me since primary school, organising 'adventures' :>
- Emma my beloved sister for also being a joy to the family with your silly jokes. ga-pou! haha. ulitmate one!!! <3
